be still and listen...

stand in holy places
who am i... be me
learn to respect myself
learn to love myself
take off the plastic face
be real
learn deep
study deep
relationship with God strengthened
relationship with myself strengthened
what do i truly want
whats my bottom line
be one with mother nature
meditate more
more kirtan
be still and listen
love people more
slow down
don't rush it
laugh more
cry more
let go
get rid of pain
move through the hurt
BE HERE NOW
sing the songs of my heart
feel the wind in my hair
the hair on my face

i wrote this, this fall sitting in a aspen grove of beautiful trees, i drew the picture this last week and i felt the two go together well. her she is sitting still trying to be all the good she can be, but at the same time she is weighted down with hard and painful things.

i wish so badly that the pain that we each carry would just leave, or at least dissipate quickly. i was told this last sunday, "i wish i knew the best magic trick ever, one that would take away all your hurt and pain and sadness" i realize that there is someone who can do that for us, for me. its God and Christ. so i ask myself a plain and simple question, if all i have to do is give myself up to God and Christ, why can't i??? why dose this become so hard???